#1 Bitch

OMG!!!!!! my dad received an offer to work in evansville, indiana.. so that means we have to migrate there.. although no plans have been made, or decisions, i'm beginning to think that the migration thingie will happen as soon as my dad's current boss gives his approval.. that means.... leaving everything behind.. haaaaaaaaaaaay.

im happy and yet im sad. tsssssssssss

+ > Nagpasaway si Pauwie Pasaway nung 9:10 AM < +

this is so damn hard for me to admit. i think.. i think that i'm beginning to love someone again. i mean, it's not that it's bad or something, but i dont see it as something to be happy about. one reason is that i dont know where i stand. the last time i really loved somebody and not caring to know where i stand or what my fucking value am i to him, really got me hurt. not the kind of hurt that you'll dismiss in a short time.. i had that hurt inside me for 2 freaking years. not that short huh? i dunno. he was the first person i fell in love with. and that's a pretty good achievement for me since i can be really coldhearted. well i guess it was karma.

am i supposed to see this as something wonderful? a new beginning? nah. i dont even know if im ready to be hurt again. will it be wrong to assume that the thing from the past will happen again? because i am doing it already.

am i scared? hell yeah.

but i could give love another chance right? maybe. if he's worth it.

ang corny ko. wahahah. senti mode...

+ > Nagpasaway si Pauwie Pasaway nung 7:11 AM < +

i havent been able to post here for a while now basically because i'm concentrating on my new blog and my so called journal. i've been writing on my so-called journal what happens to me anytime of the day so that's where my thoughts are.

i just spoke (or texted) leigh and i think were ok now. (thank god) but im planning to go to the jig in dbtc tomorrow and i know who's coming.. waaaah. i'm gonna leave early anyway. hahaha!

i've been desiring for a new pair of shoes.. huhuh. i dont have the money. oh wait.. make that I Never Have Money. hahahaha. so sad.

tata for now. see my other blog if you cant see anything new here... its www.tabulas.com/~pauwiepasaway
the tabulas blog is easier to maintain so i'm probably gonna update that more....

ciao peeps! take care.

+ > Nagpasaway si Pauwie Pasaway nung 8:13 AM < +

haaay. nakatunganga na naman ako. nagiisip kung anong mali sakin. naisip ko na ngaun ko pa lang natatanggap ang sarili ko.. hahaha ang drama eh noh. ewan ko ba, ngaun ko lang kasi na-accept na ganito na tlaga ako... magulo, maingay, mahirap pakisamahan, malabong kausap pero cute. wahahahahahahah!!!

minsan naisip ko.. pano kung ndi ako ganito? magiging ako pa rin ba si pauwie? hmmmm

ang hirap iimagine.. parang ndi tlga pwede.. cguro kasi kung ndi ako ganito malamang ndi ako si pauwie.. baka ako si faye. wahahahaha. buti n lang ako pa rin si pauwie!!!!!

wala lang. naisip ko lang kanina... habang inaalala ang mga nangyari sakin for the past 4 years. ang dami palang nagbago sakin.. haaaaay.

nung 3rd yr ako nagsimula gumulo ang buhay ko.. nagkamali ako ng mga desisyon at hanggang ngaun, pinagsisisihan ko pa rin. tulad ng kay *****. ndi ko sha pinapansin dati.. pero narealize ko na gusto ko pala sha... *pauwie tanga!* haaaay. pero okay lang, at least masaya na sha diba? although kahit gano ko kagusto magsorry sa knya, ndi ko pa rin tlaga magawa... ndi ko naman alam kung bakit.. cguro ndi ako makapagsorry kasi pati ako nagsisisi. kelangan nyang masaktan dahil sakin. dahil sa katangahan ko. dahil sa nagkamali ako ng pinili. dahil...

ang hirap pag nagsisisi sa huli. pero okay lang. cguro ndi tlga kami. cguro dahil kelangan kong matuto. cguro kelangan kong magising na nagiging tanga na ko.

shet na malagket. mahal ko pala sha. ahahahahaha. ouch.

+ > Nagpasaway si Pauwie Pasaway nung 7:34 AM < +

haaaay. kahit na may bago akong blog, magpopost pa rin ako dito.. try ko lang kung kaya ko.. gusto ko kasi malaman kung hanggang kelan ako magiging matino. whahaahhaha!!!

haaaaay ulit. nagonline ako para sa wala. ol nga sha ndi naman ako pinapansin. kaasar. ingat sha sakin, baka awayin ko n nman sha... tsk tsk... masama raw mang-away, pero masama naman ako kaya ok lang... hahaha!

update ko lang dun sa QUOTE UNQUOTE episode...

"the heart does things for resons that Reason cannot understand."
"ay yan pala ibig sabihin mo... akala ko parehong small r ung reasons.. heheh buti n lang tinayp mo.." "sabi ko na eh. kaya ndi tau magkaintindihan.. o bilis.. game na! ano sa tingin mo ibig sabihin nyan?" "duuuh. pauwie ur so babaw. eh di it means that u do things that you never thought of doing. soooo easy naman." "un na nga eh.. u do things u never thought of doing, but can you explain it? ndi naman diba?" "like duh, that's what i said. u'r so bingi tlga." "so explain mo nga..." "inexplain ko na kanina!!!"

um... ASAN?

HAAAY. kahit nakakaasar kausap to, masaya na rin kasi napapatawa nya ko minsan.lol.

hehehehe. may exam na naman akoooo bad trip. mamatay na kaung lahat ng prof ko. mga leech!

+ > Nagpasaway si Pauwie Pasaway nung 8:48 AM < +

JUST CREATED ANOTHER ACCOUNT IN TABULAS...

www.tabulas.com/~pauwiepasaway

thanks

+ > Nagpasaway si Pauwie Pasaway nung 7:54 AM < +

>Hey honestly, where ya at?
~~ SA HOUSE..

> Honestly, have you ever failed a subject at school?
~~ SHEMPRE NAMAN.. SUBJECTS PA NGA EH!!

> Honestly, what's on your mind?
~~ANO KAYANG MAGANDANG GAWIN NGAUN? MATULOG O MAGARAL? HAHAH!

> Honestly, who are you chatting online with?
~~CNA OCHIE, MINIKUI, MACKY, ELAINE, MARK AND ANNE..

> Honestly, what is it that you REALLY should be doing right now?
~~SLEEPING. OR STUDYING.

> Honestly, have you brushed your teeth today?
~~SHEMPRE..

> Honestly, who is your best friend in the world?
~~UNG BESTEST BEST? HAHAHA.. WALA NA EH, ALA NA KAMING CONTACT SINCE I WAS IN HS... HE MIGRATED NA KASI... HUHU! LOL!

> Honestly, who is the hottest person you now?
~~MARAMI!!! AHAHAHA! SI ANO.. SAKA SI TOOT!

> Honestly, are you a good friend?
~~YUP, PERO WAG LANG AKO SUSUMPUNGIN.

> Honestly, do you really think going to school is all that important?
~~YES BUT I DONT THINK THAT IT WOULD HELP YOU BE A BETTER PERSON IN THE REAL WORLD, SURE IT WOULD BE A GOOD THING TO HAVE EDUCATION BUT IT DEPENDS ON THE PERSON IF HE/SHE WOULD MAKE USE OF THE KNOWLEDGE THEY ACQUIRED.

> Honestly, what are your dreams about, mostly?
~~HMMM RANDOM THINGS, SERIOUSLY. I DREAM OF EVERYTHING YET MEANS NOTHING.

> Honestly, who/what makes you happy most of the time?
~~FRIENDS, PPL AROUND ME. WHEN IM IN A HAPPY MOOD, EVERYTHING MAKES ME HAPPY!

> Honestly, what are you so sad about right now?
~~SECRET... BASTA ALAM NA NYA UN! HAHAHA!

> Honestly, how old are you now?
~~12. WAHAHAHA!!!!

> Honestly, what song are you listening to right now?
~~GHOST OF A GOOD THING BY DASHBOARD

> Honestly, who do you want to meet at this very moment?
~~C ANO... BASTA ALAM NA NYA ULIT UN.. HARHAR.

> Honestly, where do you like to be kissed?
~~ HAHAHA! ALAM NA RIN NYA UN!

> Honestly, do you have a deadly disease?
~~BEING INSANE? AND NOT BEING ABLE TO BE SERIOUS? THAT IS DEADLY FOR ME..

> Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
~~NONE AS OF THE MOMENT.. WAIT KA LANG NG 5 MINS.. MERON NA.. HAHAHA

> Honestly, who do you wanna hug right now?
~~SI... ALAM NA NYA KUNG CNO SHA!

> Honestly, are you bored?
~~BEING BORED IS NOT IN MY DICTIONARY SINCE I AM THE PERFECTING THE ART OF BUMMING AROUND... LOL

> Honestly, who do u wanna slap right now?
~~NO ONE.. I DONT SLAP PEOPLE. ALTHOUGH, I GET EVEN WITH THEM.

> Honestly, in-luv k b?
~~HAHAH! NDI KO ALAM EH.. NDI CGURO. PERO PWEDE RING OO.

> Honestly, pakiramdam mo b gusto k nya?
~~MALAY KO BA DUN. NAPAKAGULONG KAUSAP!

> Honestly, have you said what u feel for him/her?
~~ALAM NA NYA UN.. HAHAHA

> Honestly, naicp mo n b mg-suicide?
~~YUP.. PERO NAISIP KO, KUNG MAGPAPAKAMATAY AKO, CNO NA CCRA SA BUHAY NILA? SAYANG NAMAN... CUTE PA NAMAN AKO! NYAHAHAHA KAPAL EH NOH?

> Honestly, what do you think about yourself?
~~ IM A BITCH, A BUM AND A FRIEND.. HAHAHAH!

+ > Nagpasaway si Pauwie Pasaway nung 9:18 PM < +

when God closes a door, he opens a window.
"eh papano kung walang bintana? "eh di mamatay ka."
"eh papano naman kung stuck ung window? "eh di ndi sha bubukas.. DUHHH"
"hmm... pano pag ndi nya nabuksan ung bintana tapos nalock ung pinto?" "tapos may sunog?" "oo nga! pano pag ganun?" "mashado mo namang dinibdib ung sinabi ko sau.. quote lang un, ano ka ba?" -SILENCE- "pero oo nga noh, pano nga kaya?"

hahahaha!!! san ka pa! ndi lang yan, eto pa, according sa aking napakamagaling na memory...

love is blind..
"love is blind? may mata ba ang love? duuuuh. labo mo!" "ako malabo? ows? kelan pa?!"
"duuuh matagal na noh! saka ndi ako naniniwala sa quote na yan!" "totoo yan, gusto mo ng proof???" "oo ba. cge na, bigyan mo ko example.." "ikaw." "AKO????!!!" "Oo ikaw! ang panget panget ng bf mo ndi mo ba nakikita??? tawag mo pa sa knya, cutie! naaamaaaan!!!!" "ndi ako bulag, far sighted lang... 125 nga grado eh.." *sabay punas ng eyeglasses*

wahahahahahaha!! panalo tlaga ung kausap ko...
nga pala, ako ung nagsabi ng mga naka bold hahahah! salbahe na, pero sha naman humingi ng proof ehhh....

+ > Nagpasaway si Pauwie Pasaway nung 8:49 AM < +